So this is me; my story. My “third act” has begun, as I’m calling it. See in my head I’ve always thought of things like life having 4 acts and therefore act 4 would be death. I was with my first husband for 20 years and had 2 kids, everything I thought I wanted in life. Then I finally find someone who sparked this undeniable passion in me, so I got the courage to break free of that first relationship (we were divorced by then) and just go after something for ME. To feel this surge of excitement within me that I had never felt before.

In your 20’s all you dream about is the husband, the house and the kids so you live that life until one day you realize, fuck, this is not living. You lose yourself and realize you’re just going through the motions and not even enjoying anything. You resign to the fact this is all life is. So yes did I make bad decisions of course, but when you finally feel a spark ignited in yourself you’ll do anything to keep it from going out.

So yup, Act 2 as I’m sure you guessed it, was the red hot romance I had for 7 years after my husband. The relationship that ended up destroying my life worse than I ever imagined. Blinded by that exhilarating love and passion, I fell victim to his narcissistic ways and my life went completely downhill before I knew it. I refused to let that unbelievable feeling go because I feared I’d never experience it again, and while I may not, I also feared killing myself more.

So here we go, Act 3! I walked out of my last relationship a completely different person therefore this new phase is different then phases I went through in the past. This is it, I have act 3 to turn everything around and experience the best time of my life. Not only that, it’s my chance to make things right for my younger son and I. Due to this relationship my son and I aren’t living together right now. I’ll get into it as I go on, but I’m staying with my mother to save money in order to rent a place for my son and I. He has to stay in another city nearby for school, it’s been very difficult.

We all know, as I mentioned, Act 4 is the end and so this is my last shot. To go out with a BANG I suppose they say. And that’s why I’m changing my life up and decided to write this blog and journal all the shit I’m going through. I’d love company, friends, input, a community to do this together with and not keep everything inside!

Please join me, I promise at the very least you’ll have some laughs! I have no clue what I’m doing here, don’t judge the website I’m learning and want everyone’s input and help!!